Will this be a happy new year?

Welcome back everyone, sorry it has been a few weeks since my last post but I have been very busy with family and work etc. I have seen Kilana twice since my last entry and both times we made out but I never had sex with her. I am not sure what girl wants from me but I am cool with taking things slow. I have another date with her on Friday, but this time I am going to have her over to my place to watch a movie and I think this time I will try and have sex with her. If she is not into it, if she declines having sex with me, I doubt I will ever talk to her again. That may sound shallow or whatever but I don't care. I need to worry about me, I need to spend time with people that make me happy. Isn't that why people say happy new year? Isn't being happy the whole point here?

My new years ever and christmas was not bad. I have never been a big fan of holidays and all the consumerism and bullshit but it WAS nice to spend some time with my family. At my age we don't really exchange gifts anymore but my sister did buy me a huge bottle of Grey Goose because she knows it is my favorite. I didn't get anything for her and I think she is pissed now so now I feel obligated to go buy her something but I still don't know what to get her. This is the crap I am talking about. Why should I feel obligated. Is that really what Jesus being born was all about? I doubt it.

I have been meeting a lot of younger women lately. I guess I should call them girls because they aren't really women. They are young girls and almost all of them are very immature. I have a hard time tolerating immaturity, I am not sure why but it is a big turn off for me. These young girls I have been meeting are very different from the older women I meet. The older women I meet want to talk about profound important stuff and the young girls I meet just want to talk to about their favorite tv shows, facebook, and going to clubs etc. They also like to chat on webcam all the time and they like to expose themselves and get all sexual etc. I really don't know what to make of this kind of behavior. I AM still talking to a bunch of them and I don't mind meeting them and having sex with them but I doubt any of them will turn out to be relationship material.

This morning I made eggs and bacon and toast but I forgot the bacon on the counter and by the time I ate the eggs, I no longer felt like eating the bacon so I went outside and threw it on the street. I am hoping that some birds or stray dogs will find it and eat it.