Waiting for the shoe to drop

It has been an interesting past 5 days. I have had Vanessa over to my place once this week yesterday. I can barely walk today and work is just dragging by which is why I decided to write this blog entry now when really I should be working, but hey I don't get paid enough anyways so who cares. I have access to the log files and I always delete everything I do. In most companies they keep track of all the websites you visit and everything you type. If I wasn't the admin here I would never do this but I am so yay me. I have never been used for sex before but it feels great. I feel like I am on cloud nine. I have spent many hours and weekends going to various different seminars about self improvement and habit building things etc and it is amazing how I can feel more confident, happy, and satisfied from one night of sex than I can from years of that other bullshit. It is amazing how much positive effect sex has on the human condition.

I have been chatting with a few 35+ year old women and things are going well. I am still talking to a few horny young freaks also. I have been chatting with this one girl named Kerri who is only 21 years old and she is a sexual freak! She is always masturbating in front of me on her webcam and I am like wtf. She thinks that older men are sexy and she wants to get together with me sometime this week and I do not mean to go on a date. She said just come over here and do whatever you want to me! Seriously, I feel like I have won the lottery or something. I am actually kind of worried that something major negative is going to happen to me because I have had such good fortune lately. Another part of me tells me that I deserve it and that it has all been the result of hard work finally paying off and I shouldn't worry about something bad happening.