It has been an interesting past 5 days. I have had Vanessa over to my place once this week yesterday. I can barely walk today and work is just dragging by which is why I decided to write this blog entry now when really I should be working, but hey I don't get paid enough anyways so who cares. I have access to the log files and I always delete everything I do. In most companies they keep track of all the websites you visit and everything you type. If I wasn't the admin here I would never do this but I am so yay me. I have never been used for sex before but it feels great. I feel like I am on cloud nine. I have spent many hours and weekends going to various different seminars about self improvement and habit building things etc and it is amazing how I can feel more confident, happy, and satisfied from one night of sex than I can from years of that other bullshit. It is amazing how much positive effect sex has on the human condition.
I have been chatting with a few 35+ year old women and things are going well. I am still talking to a few horny young freaks also. I have been chatting with this one girl named Kerri who is only 21 years old and she is a sexual freak! She is always masturbating in front of me on her webcam and I am like wtf. She thinks that older men are sexy and she wants to get together with me sometime this week and I do not mean to go on a date. She said just come over here and do whatever you want to me! Seriously, I feel like I have won the lottery or something. I am actually kind of worried that something major negative is going to happen to me because I have had such good fortune lately. Another part of me tells me that I deserve it and that it has all been the result of hard work finally paying off and I shouldn't worry about something bad happening.
Saturday, January 23. 2010
You don't always get what you want
Hi all let me bring you up to speed. I had Kilana over to my place a couple of weeks ago and we ended up having sex but it was like the worst sex I have ever had with a woman and I just don't think we are sexually compatible. I am not going to get into graphic details or anything but let's just say she seemed like a real noobie with a chip on her shoulder. Things just did not go smooth and she didn't really seem too passionate etc. Anyways moving on.
I also had a girl named Vanessa over to my place who is only 27... yeah that's right this 43 yr old dude was able to score with a 27 year old. Feels pretty good for my ego. The sex was amazing and I haven't felt like that in 15+ years. The only problem is that there is no way we are compatible to have a relationship and we both know it. The cool part is she doesn't care and says she can just use me for sex! Ok, fine by me, use me all you want omg are you kidding. When I tell my buddies about this, they just can't believe it. They are married to women they can't stand and they barely have sex anymore. I feel so rejuvenated that I joined a gym last week and I have been doing cardio and lifting weights ever since. This girl has renewed my faith in myself and I will be forever grateful to her for that regardless of what happens with her.
So life is good and I can't complain. What I have been doing lately though is trying to focus my attention on women that will be suitable to be in relationships with. I figure I can't really go below 35 otherwise the girl will just be too young and it won't work so I have sent off a bunch of messages to women that are 35 and older and there is definitely some hot ones here in Austin. I have to be honest though, whenever I see a smoking hot chick and she is under 35 I am still messaging them but I am not sending the same kind of message. For the women that are 35 and older, I am sending them a very serious message because I treat each one like it could be the start of a new relationship whereas the messages I send to the younger girls are far more playful and sexy. I expect to hear back from some of them soon.
I also had a girl named Vanessa over to my place who is only 27... yeah that's right this 43 yr old dude was able to score with a 27 year old. Feels pretty good for my ego. The sex was amazing and I haven't felt like that in 15+ years. The only problem is that there is no way we are compatible to have a relationship and we both know it. The cool part is she doesn't care and says she can just use me for sex! Ok, fine by me, use me all you want omg are you kidding. When I tell my buddies about this, they just can't believe it. They are married to women they can't stand and they barely have sex anymore. I feel so rejuvenated that I joined a gym last week and I have been doing cardio and lifting weights ever since. This girl has renewed my faith in myself and I will be forever grateful to her for that regardless of what happens with her.
So life is good and I can't complain. What I have been doing lately though is trying to focus my attention on women that will be suitable to be in relationships with. I figure I can't really go below 35 otherwise the girl will just be too young and it won't work so I have sent off a bunch of messages to women that are 35 and older and there is definitely some hot ones here in Austin. I have to be honest though, whenever I see a smoking hot chick and she is under 35 I am still messaging them but I am not sending the same kind of message. For the women that are 35 and older, I am sending them a very serious message because I treat each one like it could be the start of a new relationship whereas the messages I send to the younger girls are far more playful and sexy. I expect to hear back from some of them soon.
Tuesday, January 5. 2010
Will this be a happy new year?
Welcome back everyone, sorry it has been a few weeks since my last post but I have been very busy with family and work etc. I have seen Kilana twice since my last entry and both times we made out but I never had sex with her. I am not sure what girl wants from me but I am cool with taking things slow. I have another date with her on Friday, but this time I am going to have her over to my place to watch a movie and I think this time I will try and have sex with her. If she is not into it, if she declines having sex with me, I doubt I will ever talk to her again. That may sound shallow or whatever but I don't care. I need to worry about me, I need to spend time with people that make me happy. Isn't that why people say happy new year? Isn't being happy the whole point here?
My new years ever and christmas was not bad. I have never been a big fan of holidays and all the consumerism and bullshit but it WAS nice to spend some time with my family. At my age we don't really exchange gifts anymore but my sister did buy me a huge bottle of Grey Goose because she knows it is my favorite. I didn't get anything for her and I think she is pissed now so now I feel obligated to go buy her something but I still don't know what to get her. This is the crap I am talking about. Why should I feel obligated. Is that really what Jesus being born was all about? I doubt it.
I have been meeting a lot of younger women lately. I guess I should call them girls because they aren't really women. They are young girls and almost all of them are very immature. I have a hard time tolerating immaturity, I am not sure why but it is a big turn off for me. These young girls I have been meeting are very different from the older women I meet. The older women I meet want to talk about profound important stuff and the young girls I meet just want to talk to about their favorite tv shows, facebook, and going to clubs etc. They also like to chat on webcam all the time and they like to expose themselves and get all sexual etc. I really don't know what to make of this kind of behavior. I AM still talking to a bunch of them and I don't mind meeting them and having sex with them but I doubt any of them will turn out to be relationship material.
This morning I made eggs and bacon and toast but I forgot the bacon on the counter and by the time I ate the eggs, I no longer felt like eating the bacon so I went outside and threw it on the street. I am hoping that some birds or stray dogs will find it and eat it.
My new years ever and christmas was not bad. I have never been a big fan of holidays and all the consumerism and bullshit but it WAS nice to spend some time with my family. At my age we don't really exchange gifts anymore but my sister did buy me a huge bottle of Grey Goose because she knows it is my favorite. I didn't get anything for her and I think she is pissed now so now I feel obligated to go buy her something but I still don't know what to get her. This is the crap I am talking about. Why should I feel obligated. Is that really what Jesus being born was all about? I doubt it.
I have been meeting a lot of younger women lately. I guess I should call them girls because they aren't really women. They are young girls and almost all of them are very immature. I have a hard time tolerating immaturity, I am not sure why but it is a big turn off for me. These young girls I have been meeting are very different from the older women I meet. The older women I meet want to talk about profound important stuff and the young girls I meet just want to talk to about their favorite tv shows, facebook, and going to clubs etc. They also like to chat on webcam all the time and they like to expose themselves and get all sexual etc. I really don't know what to make of this kind of behavior. I AM still talking to a bunch of them and I don't mind meeting them and having sex with them but I doubt any of them will turn out to be relationship material.
This morning I made eggs and bacon and toast but I forgot the bacon on the counter and by the time I ate the eggs, I no longer felt like eating the bacon so I went outside and threw it on the street. I am hoping that some birds or stray dogs will find it and eat it.
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